Such a paradox this life.
The heartbreak of how we live as humans. Political corruption, the banking system based on greed and inequality, Monsanto, corporations, the war machine, the petro chemical industry and the majority who are asleep and not aware of being asleep.
Then there are all the inspired, ordinary warriors, who with heart and clarity are available to life to say NO to whats happening, staying connected with compassion and to act in ways of beauty, love and overflow that also break my heart and bring tears of joy and gratefulness.
This manifestation in the Great mystery, on a tiny speck swirling through the universe, all appearing in awareness.
Brings me to my knees.
Isaac on Facebook 31.12.2014
If our parents or caregivers had a dualistic focus, they would have relied on their senses to be able to take care of our needs, without having the capacity to know and feel our needs from within. To an infant whose only signal was to cry, when our signals were not met, this would have felt existential and traumatic.
What I notice is this leaves a residue of a felt sense that all is not well and a need to defend from everybody especially those that are most meaningful to us. In intimate relating, after the honeymoon period, this often manifests as pain with many compensations to deal with the felt sense of not being met. This often goes unrecognised or if felt gets projected as there being something wrong with ourselves or intimate partners, family, friends and in fact everybody. Often we are so used to this that there doesn't seem like another possibility and an automatic bracing happens so we can endure living.
There is a deep yearning at the body level, to be felt and seen, to connect and at the same time defending, so our signals are mixed and confusing.
In moments of resting as awareness, this relaxes but to embody unconditional love moment by moment is rare, as the field we inhabit reinforces this sense of not being seen and felt.
How does this show up in society? Does this mechanism show up as the political/banking system we have?
I will post again soon on what I find helpful in bringing this to peace. I know that for those expressions of totality that see through the filter that there is no one here and nothing to do, these words may be confronting or confusing. If there is any touch then this presents a beautiful opportunity.
Isaac on Facebook 04.01.2015
These expressions of totality called humans are designed to be social. Our nervous systems get the info from our caregivers about life. Any undigested experience gets passed on way before there is any capacity to discriminate, so we find ourselves with automatic habits and filters that function in a way that produces identification or to say it in another way a sense of I.
These automatic habits which no one does produce a sense of I. When life is lived through this feeling sense of I, it seems as if the I is the doer, chooser etc, is responsible for actions and that the sense of separation is real.
The habit of attention from this perspective generates a field of attention that we are quite used to, which is quite painful as it projects us, everybody and everything as objects that don't quite measure up.
These habits can only function unconsciously. No one decides to suffer conciously.
1st step is the recognition that these movements or habits are happening by themself and that there is awareness of them, including the sense of "I", which upon examination reveals itself to be movements, as the moment we enter deep sleep or stillness, the sense of I disappears.
Isaac on Facebook 06.01.2015
Awareness. which is our true nature, has no wants and need.
The expression called the body does. The movement of these wants and needs is experienced as "I" so usually there is identification with the wants and needs.
If in the womb or after birth, our nervous system never received the info that all is well, that "we" were welcomed, seen and felt, then a residue of wants and needs based on a sensation of all is not well, remains.
Our thinking tries to help and comes up with what looks like will make us happy. This keeps our attention on getting, which as long as that movement remains automatic and unconscious, keeps our attention busy, without the capacity to enjoy this moment as the beloved.
The habit of attention of most people is wanting and needing, so our systems never get the info they yearn for. If we are lucky enough to come into a field of attention where we are received completely, sometimes called transmission, our systems may temporarily relax and the recognition that there is another possibility that is indescribably beautiful, arises.
A yearning to live like this, is a fire that burns everything and enquiry is born.
Isaac on Facebook 08.01.2015
What is enquiry?
There is the enquiry advocated by Sri Ramana Maharishi.
No matter what arises, ask who is aware of that and remain as that which is aware.
There is the enquiry of Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj.
See how you function, watch the motives and results of your actions. Study the prison you have built around yourself, by inadvertence.
We discover it by being earnest, by searching, enquiring, questioning daily and hourly, by giving one's life to this discovery.
Byron Katie . The 4 questions and turn around. Is it true?
Can you absolutely know that it's true? (Yes or no.)
How do you react, what happens, when you believe that thought?
Who would you be without the thought?
Somatic Enquiry. Noticing the sensations and the automatic responses to the sensations and how that all functions.
I love them all.
Isaac on Facebook 09.01.2015
In the recognition that this universe is an experience to us and that the nervous system automatically and unconsciously responds to the experience, and that both the feeling sense of "I" and the felt sense of the universe we live in depends on these responses, it makes sense to me to include and gently notice these responses.
Isaac on Facebook 15.01.2015
The sensations of now are all we have. The nature of experience is constant change.
Is it possible to receive the sensations of this moment as the beloved?
Is that dependent on the sensations?
What is required to received the sensations as the beloved?
Isaac on Facebook 16.01.2015