COME OVER MY BRIDGE

I want you to know…
Yes come over my bridge
Come into my private world
Cause this week I discovered that deep down..

I am a lonely wolf..

Yes deep down I rather be alone..cause then there is
No trouble..no danger..no punishment..
In this private world..where I normally say to you:
“ Leave me alone!”

Cause I am confused, I am hurt, I do NOT know how to behave,
I do NOT know how to relate..Deep down I feel ..you know..(yes you know..)
I feel insecure, not capable, not worthy I feel like some kind of a stranger
who is not to be noticed, who is not to be loved..

Yes you can come over my bridge now..
Like in this hidden cave in the woods
It is a bit rough here, it is cold..water drops are dripping in
But I don´t care..cause it is my private lonely world you know (yes you know)

Here I am stuck, here I am afraid to come out..to show you who or what I am,
what I want, what I see, what I think, what I feel..
Here I am afraid to be seen.. to be visible..
Cause you then never know (isn´t it?) what kind of terrible things can and will happen..

Maybe I get punished for I don´t know what or why..
Maybe I get ridiculed, laughed at, called being stupid..
Maybe everything -ANYTHING I do or say or NOT say or NOT do is wrong!?!..
You understand? (yes you do.. and I thank you for that)

So here now with you..after one week of a not so silent Retreat with Isaac..
I feel.. for the first time in my life.. save enough now
to stick my head out of my cave and say: “Hello”
Nice to meet you, nice to be visible also in this..to be together in this …
Yes.. together with you..and you..and you...and you..

Birds are singing
Trees are softly dancing
And the limitless sky is weeping..

Very nice that you came over my bridge..
From One Mess to Oneness..
(The healing and the fun have just begun).

Thank you..


Bo Baden (9-09-2011. Hart, Jonathan Centre, Germany)